Is this writer's block? Is that the ailment I have?
I have several draft posts half written, and many more dancing around in my head... things sparked by recent conversations, world events, things that I like and hate and silly things I want to share. But, try as I might, I cannot get them expressed into words properly. I write a post and I hate it - it's not funny, or clear or strong enough. The natural flow that I'm used to producing just seems to have gone away. I feel like I'm in middle school again - unable to express myself without using bulky, awkward words and spaghetti-like phrases.
My brain feels fuzzy.
I visit many blogs on a daily basis - the blogs I read and follow, and blogs I check out when newbies want a review on the Blogger forums. I often get a smug sense of "I can do better than that," when looking at new blogs, but it never amounts to anything. Lately I've been posting... what, once a week, maybe? I have more to say to the world than a few hundred words a week. I have well-formed and highly researched opinions. I am an armchair expert on many topics. I can sit down and pump out an essay in an hour, or an essay-like forum post in twenty minutes. Why can I no longer do it for my blog? (I'm trying to boost my blogging confidence here, so don't mind if it sounds cocky. I can assure you, I don't sit at my computer all day going "I'm awesome!")
So, I've been pondering the nature of blogging. What is it for? What do the majority of people use it for? I think blogging started as e-journaling. The things people would put down on paper were now written into websites. Blogs are a very rich platform - you can embed photos, videos and music into a blog, unlike a journal. After a while, people got more creative with the medium - corporate and developer blogs popped up. Niche interest blogs popped up - showcasing the work of hobbiests, for example. Blogs as writing, coding and photography portfolios. Blogs as a means of generating revenue. Blogs seem to be getting less and less personal as time goes on.
I encounter many impersonal blogs. These blogs feel hollow, for some reason - they're missing the flavour of an individual behind the words. Many blogs seem to have no purpose. I see these all the time in the forum - new bloggers whose first five posts consist of "so I started blogging eh? This is it, I guess." I saw a blog that actually made me laugh - it was a blog about the authors first foray into blogging. Their first post was basically, "I'm blogging because I want to. This is my first post!" and their second was "Well, still going strong! I now have two posts!"
It was kind of cute, but painfully... empty. "Why are you blogging?" I wanted to ask, "When you have nothing to say?". The thing is, I believe everyone has something interesting to say. Maybe they are not skilled enough in their language to say it. Maybe it never occurred to them to say it. So when I see all these blogs that are lacking personality, that are little more than Facebook lists or "Is anyone reading this?" posts... I want to take the author and shake them up a little bit.
Get angry. Get informed. Share your interests. Share your creativity, or your hopes and dreams. You're a complex human being, I know you are. Don't sit there and pretend you aren't.
Hopefully I'll be able to take my own advice.